On our recent trip to Hilton Head, Rick and I shared a very special moment with Justin.



Being near ocean has always been the first place I want to be when I feel I need to find peace, so I felt it was the appropriate place for my first balloon release to Justin. I know that Rick had no idea what a balloon release was at first,but he didn't question me for reason, he simply followed me and offered support and compassion. While on the beach I feel he joined Justin and I in spirit which made it a beautiful experience.



My logical side knows that my message is not truly delivered to Justin, or can it? This new journey is all uncharted territory for me. I am seeking and searching for anything that makes me feel closer Justin. I know that I have to be careful which paths I travel because I know that I am so desperate to be near him I might open doors I do not need to enter.



I know many may not understand, but this is not about reason, this is about finding a way to heal a broken heart and trying to stay connected with with my son. In life, I expressed my love to him and I will continue to share my love in death...forever