I had a very restless night, strange clips of dreams that I am trying now to sort through.

When I woke up I remembered a song that was popular when Justin was little. A song that I use to sing to him during the time when we were seperated from each other.
Justin and I have had to endure and overcome so many obstacles.
I feel like someone has always been trying to take him away from me.
I am sure when I sang this song and it said, "when one of us gone and one of us is left to carry on", that I was sure it meant me, when I was gone, not Justin.

During that time I felt like I would die and I was dying inside because my baby, my little man wasn't with me. I wasn't sure how much more pain I could take. As bad as it was, I could never imagined it would only get worse.

When I sang this song, I wanted Justin to know about our special bond and to always remember how much I loved him when I was gone. It seems inconceivible it would me left here without him.



P.S. I Miss You